9.26

It's 9.26 on my room's clock..

Time for bed after 2 days sleeping over mid night.. haha..

Time for bed also means time for blogging before bed for me..

I wanna tell 'bout my first exam on my new school.

It was Math.

I didn't meant to be arrogant, but since I was born, I've never seen nmber 7 on my math score.. even 8 is rare in 9th grade..

But everything change now.

Morning was just usual

First lesson is Indonesian, if I'm not mistaken

Math is the second

5 minutes before the bell rank my heart already beating

Kinda remember that everyone said 'the real exam is nothing like the exercises'

The teacher came

It's not the math teacher but it's the counseling teacher

She gave us the test paper

Not allowed to be opened 'till everyone got one

Then she said 'now you can start'

I opened mine

The test had 5 numbers

I looked at number 4 and 5

I said to myself 'OH MY GOD!'

I did number 1 'till 3 first

Not really hard

Then I arrive at number 4

Try to solve it

Did many thing

Didn't work

I started to panic!

Say to my self 'What the hell is this?'

Left number 4

Started doing number 5

Try to do it

Can't think anymore

Panic again!

'Jesus Christ help me!!!!'

I thought I've done a little something to number 5

But it still IS a mess

The teacher said '5 minutes more' ( or 10 minutes)

Back to number 4

Still couldn't solve it

Got stressed

Finally

The bell rank

The paper was collected

I almost cry

On recess time, my BFF came..

I almost cried

But I wanna safe it at home

Don't wanna look like such a crying baby

But one tear was dropped

Nobody realise it

Not even her

Not even him

No wonder, he seems like he's got it all right

But she's pretty sure that she won't pass the minimum score

Than I was on my WORST mood ever that day

Kept thinking 'bout math

After school I went home

Straight to my room without saying 'hi' to my mom

Cried a lot , really a lot on my bolster

Then grab some clothes

Went to the bathroom

Can't resist my tears

and they started to dropped

I didn't know why

I couldn't stop

After taking a bath I went out of the bathroom

Finally my mom saw me crying outside the bath room

She hugged me

asking me what happened

I said 'I can't do my math test'

I wanted to stop crying but somehow I can't

She said 'It's okay, this is just the first time'

Then I slept

On the evening, my dad went home

As usual I hugged him

But that time I cried again..

arrrrgghhhh

Why can't I control my tears?

Even before slept I still crying!

That was the story of my first exam on Smuki

I don't want to be childish like this

But the tears just came up

Don't blame me