9.26

It's 9.26 on my room's clock..

Time for bed after 2 days sleeping over mid night.. haha..

Time for bed also means time for blogging before bed for me..

I wanna tell 'bout my first exam on my new school.

It was Math.

I didn't meant to be arrogant, but since I was born, I've never seen nmber 7 on my math score.. even 8 is rare in 9th grade..

But everything change now.

Morning was just usual

First lesson is Indonesian, if I'm not mistaken

Math is the second

5 minutes before the bell rank my heart already beating

Kinda remember that everyone said 'the real exam is nothing like the exercises'

The teacher came

It's not the math teacher but it's the counseling teacher

She gave us the test paper

Not allowed to be opened 'till everyone got one

Then she said 'now you can start'

I opened mine

The test had 5 numbers

I looked at number 4 and 5

I said to myself 'OH MY GOD!'

I did number 1 'till 3 first

Not really hard

Then I arrive at number 4

Try to solve it

Did many thing

Didn't work

I started to panic!

Say to my self 'What the hell is this?'

Left number 4

Started doing number 5

Try to do it

Can't think anymore

Panic again!

'Jesus Christ help me!!!!'

I thought I've done a little something to number 5

But it still IS a mess

The teacher said '5 minutes more' ( or 10 minutes)

Back to number 4

Still couldn't solve it

Got stressed

Finally

The bell rank

The paper was collected

I almost cry

On recess time, my BFF came..

I almost cried

But I wanna safe it at home

Don't wanna look like such a crying baby

But one tear was dropped

Nobody realise it

Not even her

Not even him

No wonder, he seems like he's got it all right

But she's pretty sure that she won't pass the minimum score

Than I was on my WORST mood ever that day

Kept thinking 'bout math

After school I went home

Straight to my room without saying 'hi' to my mom

Cried a lot , really a lot on my bolster

Then grab some clothes

Went to the bathroom

Can't resist my tears

and they started to dropped

I didn't know why

I couldn't stop

After taking a bath I went out of the bathroom

Finally my mom saw me crying outside the bath room

She hugged me

asking me what happened

I said 'I can't do my math test'

I wanted to stop crying but somehow I can't

She said 'It's okay, this is just the first time'

Then I slept

On the evening, my dad went home

As usual I hugged him

But that time I cried again..

arrrrgghhhh

Why can't I control my tears?

Even before slept I still crying!

That was the story of my first exam on Smuki

I don't want to be childish like this

But the tears just came up

Don't blame me

Hate Yesterday so much!!

Yesterday was really tottaly SUCK!

Hate everything that happened yesterday...

Don't wanna tell why but I really really really really hate it!!!

Luckily today is not really bad, instead, it's quite fun living today.. hhe..

xoxo,

C

I Miss U

This is a Simple plan song that I love so much!

Maybe it's just a typical love song but I really like the accoustic side of Simple plan,

it shows that they're not just rock..

To see you when I wake up is a gift

I didn't think could be real

To know that you feel the same as I do

is a three fold utopian dream

You do something to me that I can't explain

So would I be out of line if I said

I Miss You

I see your picture

I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine

You have only been gone 10 days

But already I'm wasting away

I know I'll see you again

either far or soon

But I need you to know

That I care

and I Miss You

Everything changed..

Why is everything turned to be nothing like I've expected??

I thought she would be my friend forever,

but suddenly she turned out to end our friendship

and left me just like that..

yeah, just like that..

I thought that he would gone forever with no trace,

but suddenly he reappeared

and continued coloring my life

I thought that I'll never met him (another him)

and knew him anymore,

but suddenly he became so irrestible to not be waited..

Just when I thought life couldn't get any harder,

it really became one..

Just when I thought I would be fine,

life makes me not..

Why everything change to be like I've been living in another world?

Why everything is not like what I've expect?

You're not alone..

God never sees who you are but he'll look deep inside your heart..

The heart that wants to always depend on Him and the heart that will always trust Him on everything..

The world may avoid you

The world may reject you and say that you're useless

The world may not be friend for you

But you should know,

that GOD NEVER LEAVES YOU..

He wants to always be there for you..

He wants to be the best friend you could ever have..

He wants to hug you..

and say that HE LOVES YOU

He really wants you to be closer to Him..

Coz he's the only one that you need..

When you have no one to count on,

When you have no friend that want to accompany you,

When you're really sad and no one understands you,

GOD IS RIGHT THERE BESIDE YOU

Waiting for you to get back to him..

He really wants to comfort you..

Coz he's the one who knows the real you more than anyone in the entire world..

He knows everything that you need..

and He will give everything as long as you depend on HIM and only HIM..

God love you so much .. !

My BFF..

A Friend is someone there will be there when you need her..

whenever, however and wherever..

She doesn't ask for a payback, instead, she will help you even before you ask her..

She's the second person (the first is Jesus) you'll talk to when you have a problem..

And you're the also the second person she'll talk to when she has a problem..

She accepts you as you are and so do you..

She knows when will you cry and you know when will she cry..

You'll never have to put on a mask like you do to everyone except her coz she knows you deep inside your heart..

But the most important thing is,

you love her, and she love you..

Those were what she meant to me..

I love u , G

and.....

I know she love me,

xoxo,

C

A different day..

Today I met M..

He's my childhood friend and we've been hanging out together since like 2nd or 3rd grade of elementary..

But when he went to secondary, we hardly even met ..

Then I also went to his secondary, which is now my ex-school..

I met him just a couple of time but it's different now..

He looked like my brother , not the face, but somehow he just looked like one..

And I feel that I don't know him anymore..

Today..

I met him again.. When I'm in high school and he also went to the same school..

But what surprised me the most is that he recognize me.. haha..

Things stay the same.. I don't know him anymore..

I thought that he's like a pretty boy, but he's actually really good at badminton

and he taught me to play .. He only taught me in front of all other girls ..

My friend said that he only pay attention to me.. What was that suppose to mean?

I'm the worst? Huaaaaa..

And I was like an idiot for playing like that.. I haven't play badminton for maybe 2 years and somehow forget how to play.. hehe..

But anyway, my school is not pretty bad either..

C u soon,

you know you love me,

xoxo,

C

Toefl Essay

Nowadays, there are more and more teenagers who have jobs while they are still students. Doing both things at the same time have both advantages and disadvantages. One of the advantages is they gain more experiences from working and studying at the same time. They can also earn money for the college fee or for their extra pocket money. When they work for someone else, they will learn how to deal with many kind of people. On the other hand, there are also disadvantages in doing both things at the same time. Students will reduce their study time and they cannot focus on their school. It will affect their grades. Moreover, if teenagers work while they are students, they have to finish their homework at night and it will reduce their sleeping hours.

In my opinion, having jobs for students is a good thing. They can learn how to manage their time on working and studying. Furthermore, experiences from having part time jobs will be useful when they graduate and apply jobs.

Students who have part time jobs will be more independent. They can pay for their own meals, so their parents don’t have to send them too much money. They also learn how to be responsible to handle their money wisely.

In conclusion, it is good for teenagers to have jobs while they are still students because they can learn to be more responsible and more independent. They can also gain more experiences for their future.