Him..

The way you hold my arms

The way you tell me you'll keep me safe

The way you hold me from my back like you're really afraid something bad will happen to me

The way you distract me so I wouldn't be scared

The way you try to be funny so I wouldn't be so frightened 

The way you're being such a real gentleman

It all reminds me how much I really thankful of having you in my life even it was only for a few hours..

I know I've gotta let you go , but someplace inside my heart just can't let you go..

Like my friend said,

 "You will know that you love someone when you want him/her to be happy. Even if that means you're not a part of their happiness. :)"

All I Wanted

I love this song since the first I heard .. 

Actually this is not really my tipe , but the music just speak to me and I kinda love how it speaks ..

Lyrics to All I Wanted :

Think of me when you're out, when you're out there

I'll beg you nice from my knees

When the world treats you way too fairly

It's a shame i'm a dream

All I wanted was you

All I wanted was you

I think I'll pace my apartment a few times

And fall asleep on the couch

And wake up early to black and white re-runs?

That escaped from the mouth

Oh-Oh

All I wanted was you

All I wanted was you

All I wanted was you

All I wanted was you

I could follow you to the beginning

And just relive the start

And maybe then we'll remember to slow down

To all of our favorite parts

All I wanted was you

All I wanted was you

All I wanted was you

All I wanted was you

All I wanted was you

New Moon .......

  

Ok, I'm really excited today..
Trying to put it into words right now..
So, it all started at 8.30 when my bf (as in best friend, NOT boyfriend), Y texted me that we'll left at 10 straight to EX coz it was the only cinema that have New Moon coming out on the first day in our country and it'll be nuts thinkin' of the crowds..
Then at 10 am I left my math club by a reason called 'piano course'..
I waited for her like 30 minutes. Then she came to pick me up at school.
Arrived at EX.
OMG! I've never seen a cinema could be THAT full..
Like there were 1000 people inside.
Then Y and I lined up. We met our schoolmates, N there ..
After 30 minutes, suddenly the security said that this wasn't the line and there was no line in our line.. 
WTF??
So, we gave up. But N has a friend in front and ask her to buy the tickets ..
Then Y and I got really confused so we went to the premiere part hoping that would be more promising coz the regular already full booked till midnight.. 
The problem was, premiere was also FULL!!!
and all people that we saw lining up in a 300 meters line were just hoping to get the tickets for tommorow and the following day..
Too bad ..
We then decided to line for another film that was also good, 2012..
It's also in the premire.. But we don't care..
After 1 hour, suddenly N called Y that she has 2 tickets more and she's not gonna use it..
Me and Y almost scream and we were totally thankful to get those tickets while people who lined from 9 am can't even get the ticket for midnight show..
And guess what??
We got the sit for 1 p.m and that was the FIRST show of New Moon in Indonesia!!!!
Really it's the first!!
I don't care if we had to sit on the first row but New Moon is a MUST!!
Wow! God is amazing!!

It's time

Time run too fast
and I feel like I can't keep up 
For real..
Felt like I just joined the orientation program now it's already close to final exam.
Why can't time just .. slow down ?
So I can still hold in ..
Really, it's too fast .

New twilight..

Team Jacob forever !!! 

Get Up

Ever heard of the song "Get Up" from Superchick?

It's one of the soundtracks of Bring It On 4: In It To Win It

That song really inspired me, not the tune, but the lyrics.

It shows that even we've fell for like 40 times we can still get up..

Lyrics to Get Up :

I'm not afraid to fall

it means i climbed up high

to fall is not to fail

you fail when you don't try

not afraid to fall

i might just learn to fly and

i will spread these wings of mine

[Chorus:]

If i get up i might fall back down again

so let's get up come on

If i get up i might fall back down again

we get up anyway

If i get up i might fall back down again

so let's get up come on

If i get up i might fall back down again

I might fall back down again

We'll just jump and see, even if it's the 20th time

we'll just jump and see if we can fly

I'm not afraid to fall

and here i told you so

don't want to rock the boat

but i just had to know

just a greener side

or can i touch the sky

but either way i will have tried

i'm not afraid to fall

I've fallen many times

they laughed when i fell down

but i have dared to climb

I'm not afraid to fall

i know i'll fall again

but i can win this in the end

[ Get Up Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com/ ]

Best friend

Hate her? Of course I do.. That's for sure..

but I know she's still my best friend and I know that deep inside my heart I still love her..

Even when I keep saying I don't care bout her anymore, I keep checking on her frequently on facebook and twitter..

Even I've once blocked her but I couldn't resist to unblock her the next time I signed in..

Maybe sometime you can get mad with your bestfriend, but if she really is your bestfriend, you can't hate her even though how much she's hurted you..

I know that you know you're who I'm talking about..

But, I just wanna say..

You are still my best friend no matter what..

New moon again..

Can't get enough with him.. He's so adoring.. Don't u think so?

New Moon..

Jealous much, Edward?

Don't they looked perfect together?

Latest thing..

New Moon press conference.. Can't wait for the show!

Spotted. Zac in the front row of at the Lakers game..

Captain of East High basketball team now watching Lakers.. lol..

Stephanie Pratt is on rehab for alcohol abuse? C'mon..

Miss those days..

I kinda miss those days..

When I used to be the head of Dewan Galang..

When I used to be one of the OSIS members..

When I used to be one of the math club members..

When I used to be one of the p7 cup comitee..

When I used to be on the basketball team..

When I used to be the head of English Wall Magz team..

When life used to be not really tough..

When I used to do what I please..

When I used to play all day..

When I'm in Junior High School..

Learning Something..

Something that I learned from the past couple of weeks :

"Everyone is Different"

Everyone has a different point of view..

And I can't change their mind just becoz I think they were wrong..

Everyone thinks differently but so what?

I don't have to make them all be like me right?

So, just let it go..

We don't have to agree with others and so do others don't have to agree with us..

Just live your life as it really is..

Don't put much pressure than it already is..

Who's who?

Has been quite a busy week lately that I can't post anything in my blog.. :'(

Actually, I don't know what I'm gonna write right now but I just wanna post something ..

So, I'll write bout my friends..

Hope u can find who's who..

She is the 'big-glasses'

She is the party girl

She is the computer girl

She is the sacred girl

She is the hottest girl

She is the 'CC' girl

She is the cute girl

She is the fashionista

She is the writing girl known as secretary

She is the thin girl

She is the 'man'

Can guess?

If u're member of X8 of course!

Secondary school

Lately, I've been missing my junior high school moment badly..

It passed too fast that I can hardly remember..

When I first got to my old school,

SMPK 7 PENABUR

I didn't really know what am I doing here..

But then I got the best class after all..

It really IS the best class.. 7D ..

A class that I will never forget..

We had so much trouble at first..

All the teacher were complaining bout our class..

Like the fact that we're the noisiest class ever..

Then one day there's this case with our class computer..

Someone put a one-page-note-with-my computer-icon-so-when-people-open-my computer folder-it'll-show-up that was full of words insulting teachers and students..

But the case was closed in a few days after someone-nobody-knows admit to our homeroom teacher by texting him.. Or at least that's what we heard..

After the " computer case " we also had many other cases that made the hole class had to run around the field for like 5 times..

Btw, we got an amazing homeroom teacher called

Mr. Anwar Effendi.

7D is the best class ever in the hole world and I'll never forget 'bout that..

It was the first time I felt lucky to be one of the class member..

We all have high solidarity to each other and even on geography test the hole class worked together..

Each one of us was good at something..

In 7D, I found my first real bestfriend..

It's a lot togetherness in this class..

and I know it last

forever

I'm pretty sure that each one of us felt the same way..

Miss u guys so much!!

xoxo,

C

Umm..

I really like him..

a lot..

But I think I really need to figure something out before I fall in love again..

Coz love is sacred and it needs a commitment which I'm not ready yet..

Besides, I've promised to myself to be single at least untill graduation..

Seeing all my friends who have a boyfriend makes me feel like

..Being single is always better than that..

Nice bedroom

I found a few "different" bedroom..

These looked awesome..

Like for a small room that can be placed a lotta things..

Pretty cute too..

Btw, the first pic didn't looked like a bedroom.. More like a big room with beds and table above it..

X8 in progress

My class has it own ups and downs..

Many smart people here..

.Gold medal winners.

.1st, 2nd, and 3rd general rank.

.prettiest girl from the hole 10th grade.

.basketball player.

.Voli player.

.IT genius.

But there are also bad side of my class..

.perv guys. (most of them)

.childish girl.

.freak people.

.egoist people.

.bossy people.

.annoying people.

But I know somehow we can work things out and we can be the bezt class.. Yeah..

Right people?

.Love.

Is this love?

He's always in your mind

You can't stop thinking 'bout him

You keep wondering what's he doing now

He's the first name that pop into your head

He's the one that you're always waiting

Why everyone seems to bother 'bout it anyway?

It's not like if the answer is 'yes', you'll feel the same way for more than 2 weeks..

It's not like he'll feel the same way right?

Well, I don't care bout those things anymore..

Life's just too great to be ruined by boys..

Never know how it's gonna end..

You could never predict the future..

Like, for once you felt like everything is going perfect , then in a moment it all turned to a disaster just as easy as it sounds..

Like, for once you felt like he's the one, then in a day he don't care bout it anymore..

Like, for once you felt like you can always be in your comfort zone but then you've got to get out of it and start a real life..

Like, for once you felt like you've done everything right but then you mess everything you've done, you screw it all, and you can't even fix it..

Life is a mystery, life is wonderful, life is unpredictable, but living with Jesus is nothing like you could ever imagine..

Holiday

I've been out from bloggin' area for a while, coz it's HOLIDAY people!! YEY!

But the problem is.. It's almost over!

Why? How I'm suppose to know?

Anyway, I'll tell u what I'm up to on holiday..

On Sunday (is it Sunday? I really forgot the day), my famz and I went to Ritz Carlton..

It's probably the BEST hotel I've ever stayed at..

The room's restroom is tottaly the best!

And the restaurant (Asia) , is very very gorgeous..

They also have a lot of facilities..

My brother told me that the gym is the BEST (unfortunately, I wear sneakers so I didn't try it)

Near the swimming pool, there are also table tennis, mini soccer, and a small billiard table (which a few balls already gone)..

I hope that we can extend one more night, but they already full booked.. :(

Anyhow, coz it's all promo prices, the hotel's sooooo crowded..

I can barely swim in the swimming pool!

But it's still great out there..

The whirlpool, steam room, sauna, and everything is also great, but I prefer bath in my room, than in the whirlpool area..

At night, we went to Grand Indonesia to eat at Takigawa but too bad, it already closed..

So we ate at Jitt Lada (Am I wrong with the spelling?)..

The food's great!

The next morning, my parents and I went jogging on the jogging track, while my brother went to the gym.. (He's pretty much obsessed to have those muscles, biceps, and six pack)

The track wasn't as good as they have in Borobudur Hotel..

Then in the afternoon, we went back to Takigawa and have lunch there..

Then my mom bought some shirts at Polo..

Finally, we went back home..

Ritz Carlton is definitely the best hotel I've ever stayed at!

One Tuesday in X8

Today was reaaallly crazy, or insane to be exact.

Everything was goin' normal in the morning.

But then, we started tweeting with all the words 'b' and 'f'

Wonder what were those? I bet you know it.

Anyway, that's not the crazy part yet.

The craziest is on the 8th period.

There were no teacher coming.

So Y decided to take out her cards..

We started to play something called 'tepok nyamuk'.

The person who lost had to do 'dare'.

The first was S .

We made her went to the boy's toilet.

Luckily, there were nobody inside.

Then the second was M, out craziest girl.

We made her posed as 'fashionista' in front of the class of X5.

She did it pretty 'wow'.

The next lucky guy is A .

We made him posed as Jacko in front of the hole class.

And we were all staring at him and it was a LOT of fun!

The next is .. again .. M ! Why she always so lucky? XP

This is the craziest part.

The 'dare' is ..

She had to 'SHOOT' our one and only ..

Brondong!!

And she had to do it in front of the class!

We told everyone to be quite.

And she was sooo you-know-what.

Untill she finally said 'sebenernya lw ganteng' and than acted like she's vomitting..

LOL!

That was the blast!

And that was just 1 part of X8 so-crazy-as-hell story that brought everyday!

xoxo,

C

I know..

Now I know..

The reason for everything that she said..

Sometime it's hard to understand people..

Sometime I can judge a person just like that, but

if you take a look ,, there's gotta be a reason for everyone to be like that..

Look the-person-I-really-love,

I'm really sorry..

Maybe I'm too introvert that I can't see what really going on..

I'm sorry I can't understand u ..

But you've got 2 know ..

You're still the BEST friend ever and you can talk to me everytime you feel like it, don't keep it urself coz I can't read ur mind..

Am I arrogant ?

Honestly, Am I?

Besties

It's soooo hard to accept a friend as she really is..

It's just.. I don't know..

I love her .. but ..

There's always something wrong with us ..

Sometimes I feel like ..

I don't know her at all ..

She can change her mind that quick .. But I can't keep up ..

I know she loves me too but why there's always a 'but' ?

Anyway, since friendship needs work, I'll work on it.. ^^

cao..

My school

I 've been complaining 'bout my school since the 4th day of my school day..

And after thinking 'bout everything, I thought complaining will make no sense at all..

Why can't I just "like" my school as it is, with all the tests, projects, and deadlines?

Well, maybe becoz it's just not likeable..

Yeah, that's my school..

And it all come to one decision.

"Life is beautiful except the school thing"

School's like that..

Most of the time..

xoxo,

C

9.26

It's 9.26 on my room's clock..

Time for bed after 2 days sleeping over mid night.. haha..

Time for bed also means time for blogging before bed for me..

I wanna tell 'bout my first exam on my new school.

It was Math.

I didn't meant to be arrogant, but since I was born, I've never seen nmber 7 on my math score.. even 8 is rare in 9th grade..

But everything change now.

Morning was just usual

First lesson is Indonesian, if I'm not mistaken

Math is the second

5 minutes before the bell rank my heart already beating

Kinda remember that everyone said 'the real exam is nothing like the exercises'

The teacher came

It's not the math teacher but it's the counseling teacher

She gave us the test paper

Not allowed to be opened 'till everyone got one

Then she said 'now you can start'

I opened mine

The test had 5 numbers

I looked at number 4 and 5

I said to myself 'OH MY GOD!'

I did number 1 'till 3 first

Not really hard

Then I arrive at number 4

Try to solve it

Did many thing

Didn't work

I started to panic!

Say to my self 'What the hell is this?'

Left number 4

Started doing number 5

Try to do it

Can't think anymore

Panic again!

'Jesus Christ help me!!!!'

I thought I've done a little something to number 5

But it still IS a mess

The teacher said '5 minutes more' ( or 10 minutes)

Back to number 4

Still couldn't solve it

Got stressed

Finally

The bell rank

The paper was collected

I almost cry

On recess time, my BFF came..

I almost cried

But I wanna safe it at home

Don't wanna look like such a crying baby

But one tear was dropped

Nobody realise it

Not even her

Not even him

No wonder, he seems like he's got it all right

But she's pretty sure that she won't pass the minimum score

Than I was on my WORST mood ever that day

Kept thinking 'bout math

After school I went home

Straight to my room without saying 'hi' to my mom

Cried a lot , really a lot on my bolster

Then grab some clothes

Went to the bathroom

Can't resist my tears

and they started to dropped

I didn't know why

I couldn't stop

After taking a bath I went out of the bathroom

Finally my mom saw me crying outside the bath room

She hugged me

asking me what happened

I said 'I can't do my math test'

I wanted to stop crying but somehow I can't

She said 'It's okay, this is just the first time'

Then I slept

On the evening, my dad went home

As usual I hugged him

But that time I cried again..

arrrrgghhhh

Why can't I control my tears?

Even before slept I still crying!

That was the story of my first exam on Smuki

I don't want to be childish like this

But the tears just came up

Don't blame me

Hate Yesterday so much!!

Yesterday was really tottaly SUCK!

Hate everything that happened yesterday...

Don't wanna tell why but I really really really really hate it!!!

Luckily today is not really bad, instead, it's quite fun living today.. hhe..

xoxo,

C

I Miss U

This is a Simple plan song that I love so much!

Maybe it's just a typical love song but I really like the accoustic side of Simple plan,

it shows that they're not just rock..

To see you when I wake up is a gift

I didn't think could be real

To know that you feel the same as I do

is a three fold utopian dream

You do something to me that I can't explain

So would I be out of line if I said

I Miss You

I see your picture

I smell your skin on the empty pillow next to mine

You have only been gone 10 days

But already I'm wasting away

I know I'll see you again

either far or soon

But I need you to know

That I care

and I Miss You