Friendship

Sometime I don't understand the TRUE meaning of friendship.
We cry together, we laugh together..
But then what?

Friends can't be ALWAYS there whenever you need just like all the poems say..

But that doesn't mean they don't love you.
They have limits too.
And sometime we are too busy with our problem that we never realize our friends also need us.


So what does friendship means??
I haven't figure out something that can best describe friendship.
When you are really close to your friend, you feel like there is no one that could ever understand you that much.
But then it change so quick. She's not close anymore to you and both of you don't talk pretty often.
She often got distracted and not listening to you anymore. 
Then what do you feel? BETRAYED!

But sometime it's not what she meant to do. 

Maybe she didn't forget you. Maybe she just forgot to remember you.

Have you ever consider it that way?
Your friend need space too. 

Well, it hasn't describe friendship as well.

So here's the story.

It's about my first class in High School

One thing I learned pretty fast is that "you are where you seat"

Your friends are they who seat near you.

And it's true.

I got my besties since then.

LOTs of best friends.

But at some point I felt like they don't like me anymore.

Like I'm not longer accepted there.

Like they don't want me anymore.

But then I realize, that's not true.

Friends are not based on need.

We're there when our friends need us and in my class, I found out that even though sometimes we felt that way. 

That our friends are leaving us, it's really NOT true.

We get along pretty well. And I know it's not FAKE..

In friendship, there are UPs and DOWNs.
But somehow it's like what you do with your family.
You just know they're sorry without they telling you when you feel like they're leaving you.
And somehow it keeps you from feeling lonely.

Friendship isn't always be about listening to each other.

I mean, it's important, but it's not the hole thing is about.
You don't "USE" your friend that way.

And friends now that you love them without you tell them that..

Selfishness

My parents always give me everything that I need, and sometimes that I want. 

( Not everything , but quite a lot)

And it never cross my mind that 

someone could actually quit their school because they can't pay the fee..

I think those stories are just for the soap ophera..

OK, maybe that's too tough.

I never even think that people that can't go out with their friends just because they can't pay for movies are 
"Real"

And some of them are my close friends !!

I mean, how could I want so much things in my life while others can't even pay their school fees??

How could I always ask my parents to buy me something I want when even others can't pay for something they Need??

Maybe I shouldn't be so selfish and only thinking bout myself while others are fighting for just one spoon of rice..

True Friend

Friends are like frames

But true friend is the photo

Frame can be changable

But the photo remains forever

Friends are like pens

But true friends is the tip-ex

That can erase all the pain

That pens make on a paper

Friends are like gold and silver

But true friend is like diamond

Diamond is more difficult to make

But it shines much brighter

Friends are like laptops

But true friend is like a MacBook Pro

There are a lot of good laptops

But macbook is always the best

Especially when it is a MacBook Pro ^^

She is my true friend

my photo, my tip-ex, my diamond

and my MacBook Pro

.I love you.

Trip to Europe..

Last December, my fams and I went to Europe..

It's winter and so damn cold . 

But anyway, it's probably the best place I've ever been ^^

.I love snow.

too coldd .. XP

Amsterdam was the first country we visited and it's wonderful..

Mt. Titlis is always snowing..

Temperature above: - 11 celcius.. 

Left to Right: Dio, My brother, me, Dea (Dio's sister)

It's time

Time run too fast
and I feel like I can't keep up 
For real..
Felt like I just joined the orientation program now it's already close to final exam.
Why can't time just .. slow down ?
So I can still hold in ..
Really, it's too fast .

Secondary school

Lately, I've been missing my junior high school moment badly..

It passed too fast that I can hardly remember..

When I first got to my old school,

SMPK 7 PENABUR

I didn't really know what am I doing here..

But then I got the best class after all..

It really IS the best class.. 7D ..

A class that I will never forget..

We had so much trouble at first..

All the teacher were complaining bout our class..

Like the fact that we're the noisiest class ever..

Then one day there's this case with our class computer..

Someone put a one-page-note-with-my computer-icon-so-when-people-open-my computer folder-it'll-show-up that was full of words insulting teachers and students..

But the case was closed in a few days after someone-nobody-knows admit to our homeroom teacher by texting him.. Or at least that's what we heard..

After the " computer case " we also had many other cases that made the hole class had to run around the field for like 5 times..

Btw, we got an amazing homeroom teacher called

Mr. Anwar Effendi.

7D is the best class ever in the hole world and I'll never forget 'bout that..

It was the first time I felt lucky to be one of the class member..

We all have high solidarity to each other and even on geography test the hole class worked together..

Each one of us was good at something..

In 7D, I found my first real bestfriend..

It's a lot togetherness in this class..

and I know it last

forever

I'm pretty sure that each one of us felt the same way..

Miss u guys so much!!

xoxo,

C

Umm..

I really like him..

a lot..

But I think I really need to figure something out before I fall in love again..

Coz love is sacred and it needs a commitment which I'm not ready yet..

Besides, I've promised to myself to be single at least untill graduation..

Seeing all my friends who have a boyfriend makes me feel like

..Being single is always better than that..

X8 in progress

My class has it own ups and downs..

Many smart people here..

.Gold medal winners.

.1st, 2nd, and 3rd general rank.

.prettiest girl from the hole 10th grade.

.basketball player.

.Voli player.

.IT genius.

But there are also bad side of my class..

.perv guys. (most of them)

.childish girl.

.freak people.

.egoist people.

.bossy people.

.annoying people.

But I know somehow we can work things out and we can be the bezt class.. Yeah..

Right people?

Never know how it's gonna end..

You could never predict the future..

Like, for once you felt like everything is going perfect , then in a moment it all turned to a disaster just as easy as it sounds..

Like, for once you felt like he's the one, then in a day he don't care bout it anymore..

Like, for once you felt like you can always be in your comfort zone but then you've got to get out of it and start a real life..

Like, for once you felt like you've done everything right but then you mess everything you've done, you screw it all, and you can't even fix it..

Life is a mystery, life is wonderful, life is unpredictable, but living with Jesus is nothing like you could ever imagine..

Holiday

I've been out from bloggin' area for a while, coz it's HOLIDAY people!! YEY!

But the problem is.. It's almost over!

Why? How I'm suppose to know?

Anyway, I'll tell u what I'm up to on holiday..

On Sunday (is it Sunday? I really forgot the day), my famz and I went to Ritz Carlton..

It's probably the BEST hotel I've ever stayed at..

The room's restroom is tottaly the best!

And the restaurant (Asia) , is very very gorgeous..

They also have a lot of facilities..

My brother told me that the gym is the BEST (unfortunately, I wear sneakers so I didn't try it)

Near the swimming pool, there are also table tennis, mini soccer, and a small billiard table (which a few balls already gone)..

I hope that we can extend one more night, but they already full booked.. :(

Anyhow, coz it's all promo prices, the hotel's sooooo crowded..

I can barely swim in the swimming pool!

But it's still great out there..

The whirlpool, steam room, sauna, and everything is also great, but I prefer bath in my room, than in the whirlpool area..

At night, we went to Grand Indonesia to eat at Takigawa but too bad, it already closed..

So we ate at Jitt Lada (Am I wrong with the spelling?)..

The food's great!

The next morning, my parents and I went jogging on the jogging track, while my brother went to the gym.. (He's pretty much obsessed to have those muscles, biceps, and six pack)

The track wasn't as good as they have in Borobudur Hotel..

Then in the afternoon, we went back to Takigawa and have lunch there..

Then my mom bought some shirts at Polo..

Finally, we went back home..

Ritz Carlton is definitely the best hotel I've ever stayed at!

I know..

Now I know..

The reason for everything that she said..

Sometime it's hard to understand people..

Sometime I can judge a person just like that, but

if you take a look ,, there's gotta be a reason for everyone to be like that..

Look the-person-I-really-love,

I'm really sorry..

Maybe I'm too introvert that I can't see what really going on..

I'm sorry I can't understand u ..

But you've got 2 know ..

You're still the BEST friend ever and you can talk to me everytime you feel like it, don't keep it urself coz I can't read ur mind..

My school

I 've been complaining 'bout my school since the 4th day of my school day..

And after thinking 'bout everything, I thought complaining will make no sense at all..

Why can't I just "like" my school as it is, with all the tests, projects, and deadlines?

Well, maybe becoz it's just not likeable..

Yeah, that's my school..

And it all come to one decision.

"Life is beautiful except the school thing"

School's like that..

Most of the time..

xoxo,

C

9.26

It's 9.26 on my room's clock..

Time for bed after 2 days sleeping over mid night.. haha..

Time for bed also means time for blogging before bed for me..

I wanna tell 'bout my first exam on my new school.

It was Math.

I didn't meant to be arrogant, but since I was born, I've never seen nmber 7 on my math score.. even 8 is rare in 9th grade..

But everything change now.

Morning was just usual

First lesson is Indonesian, if I'm not mistaken

Math is the second

5 minutes before the bell rank my heart already beating

Kinda remember that everyone said 'the real exam is nothing like the exercises'

The teacher came

It's not the math teacher but it's the counseling teacher

She gave us the test paper

Not allowed to be opened 'till everyone got one

Then she said 'now you can start'

I opened mine

The test had 5 numbers

I looked at number 4 and 5

I said to myself 'OH MY GOD!'

I did number 1 'till 3 first

Not really hard

Then I arrive at number 4

Try to solve it

Did many thing

Didn't work

I started to panic!

Say to my self 'What the hell is this?'

Left number 4

Started doing number 5

Try to do it

Can't think anymore

Panic again!

'Jesus Christ help me!!!!'

I thought I've done a little something to number 5

But it still IS a mess

The teacher said '5 minutes more' ( or 10 minutes)

Back to number 4

Still couldn't solve it

Got stressed

Finally

The bell rank

The paper was collected

I almost cry

On recess time, my BFF came..

I almost cried

But I wanna safe it at home

Don't wanna look like such a crying baby

But one tear was dropped

Nobody realise it

Not even her

Not even him

No wonder, he seems like he's got it all right

But she's pretty sure that she won't pass the minimum score

Than I was on my WORST mood ever that day

Kept thinking 'bout math

After school I went home

Straight to my room without saying 'hi' to my mom

Cried a lot , really a lot on my bolster

Then grab some clothes

Went to the bathroom

Can't resist my tears

and they started to dropped

I didn't know why

I couldn't stop

After taking a bath I went out of the bathroom

Finally my mom saw me crying outside the bath room

She hugged me

asking me what happened

I said 'I can't do my math test'

I wanted to stop crying but somehow I can't

She said 'It's okay, this is just the first time'

Then I slept

On the evening, my dad went home

As usual I hugged him

But that time I cried again..

arrrrgghhhh

Why can't I control my tears?

Even before slept I still crying!

That was the story of my first exam on Smuki

I don't want to be childish like this

But the tears just came up

Don't blame me

Hate Yesterday so much!!

Yesterday was really tottaly SUCK!

Hate everything that happened yesterday...

Don't wanna tell why but I really really really really hate it!!!

Luckily today is not really bad, instead, it's quite fun living today.. hhe..

xoxo,

C

Mon, July 27, 2009

If it's not for Native lesson, today's lesson is soo damn sleepy! haha..

I've got 2 hour maths and 2 hour physics, what could be worse? A plus 2 hour chemistry ? XP

Overall, today is not pretty bad either, we had no test at school and everything went quite fine ..

Btw, I've never mention my high school life..

Here it goes..

I've got a not-to-comfortable class..

I'm still hanging out with my BFF, G

S, B, and Y are my besties in class..

and I still miss A so much... T.T

Well, that's it 'bout my school.. ;P

After school, I had a piano lesson and today is a bad piano day. XP

Then I went home.

I think my fever is not fully recovered. So my mom gave me Panadol and Jescool for my cough.

Now I have a flue which is worse than just cough..

Fuuh..

I'm tired of being sick..

Hope tomorrow will be better..

you know you love me

xoxo,

C

New School

AAAAAAARRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

That's the only thing I wanted to say.

I'm really stressed out!

This school is killing me!

I mean, what the hell do I care bout Argon or Sulfur or Plumbum or those stupid name?

It's not like I'll use it anyway. So why do I have to study all that?

Imagine this..

I CAN'T go online on school day

I CAN'T watch tv for more than 15 minutes on school day

I even CAN'T read gossip girl everyday

What kind of school is that?